Emotional Breakdown Week. !!!!

  Hey readers, so I have reasons for not finishing my 16 Days blog.. It doesn't even matter anyway... </3

So LAST Saturday Jacob was supposed to get home and call/text me..He didn't.  I called and texted. No answer. ALL WEEK, I CRIED myself to sleep.. thinking "Omg. Something happened to him." and I was so so sad..This whole week, I cried.. a lot. I was depressed and feeling blue. :(  Well on Friday, My best friend Lizzy texted him..and he said he was single. Mind you, he hasn't texted me since he said he loved me and goodbye before leaving for New York.. Well to try to make it better, Lizzy said it was the wrong number..

I called him yesterday, and he didn't answer. He called me back.. My phone was being stupid and wouldn't let me answer.. I texted him telling me to call me back.. Heres the conversation:

J: STOP TEXTING/CALLING ME!!!!
B: Wtf, WHAT IS GOING ON?!?! DID YOU FORGET WE WERE DATING?!?!
J: Stop texting me. Or I will block you.
B: What happened?! When the h*** did you break up with me?! </3 </3 </3 </3
J: Im blocking you.
B: We are dating though!!! :'( :'( :'(
J: NO WE ARE NOT!!!!!!
B: .....</3 what happened to forever?
J: Im blocking you.

I called him- sure enough.. he blocked my number.
I have NO idea when he decided to just 'dump me' but I had no idea... </3 I love how he didn't even have the guts to tell me it was over...apparently I was supposed to take a hint from 'the silent treatment.'..I also found out he was cheating on me. Go Him. I cried.. A LOT...but then I realized of the depression I WASTED because of Javan, and I forgot about that stupid boy(: I do not care what he does, who he dates, or what he thinks. I really do not care anymore. :) Matter of fact, Ive already been asked out 2 times.. and I like someone:) He even saved a picture of me to his phone(: (: (Call me pathetic, but I got all happy:D :P) One of my best friends is trying to convince me to ask him out because she thinks we 'are in love with each other'. :P but, Yeah. I am very happy I do not have to worry about the stress of an Long Distance Relationship anymore(:  I forgave him, and forgot the relationship:) Go Me. Woot.. ok so..next order of buisness. :P

So I went to church this morning.. and I found out the worst news I could ever find out from my church....</3

My youth pastor and his wife are moving to Virginia in 3 weeks!!!!!! NOBODY knows how close I am to both of them.. My pastor read the note of resignation..and I started to bawl!! <////3 I will miss them so much!! My youth pastor hugged me for the first time..and I just wanted to cry in his arms. </3 They have helped me through SO MUCH, and they are gonna be G O N E. I know..I know..its called 'Facebook' and 'texting' but its not the same thing..!!!! SO yeah, this weeks been a hard, emotional one..but if I want the rainbow, i have to get through the storm. <3

Well I just want to thank my friends for being there for me the past couple of days:
Elizabeth: Your Facebook status, oh my gosh! I LOVE YOU!!! You helped me SO SO SO MUCH! Ahh,I love you! <3

Allie: Your the BEST sister I could EVER ASK FOR!!! You always know how to make it better. <3.. Your the one I go to for band-aids when I fall off my bike(NOT LITERALLY!:P) and OH MY GOSH, I LOVE YOU LIKE CRAZZY!

Tony: Your an amazing best guy friend, brother, and amazing person. Thank You for the kind words and big long hug today, it felt so safe and amazing!. <3

Matthew: O.M.G. You make me smile ALL the time, and even though your a HORRIBLE physicologist, your an AMAZING FRIEND BECAUSE YOU MAKE MY DAY AMAZING!. Your great. :)