Day 14

Ok. Im going to be completely honest, today was hard. I litterly bawled hard today. I miss Jacob so much, i did talk to my sister.. Who i shared cute quirks my boyy does, and I realized something- Jacob loves me and misses me just as much as i love and miss him. I realized.. Hes giving me strength just like im giving him strength, he left his heart in the palm of my hand as i did the same for him. So in the midst of my emotional withdrawls, i found out i am on the verge of being very ill due to mt weight- i am loosing weight rapidly.. And its getting, beyond not healthy, anyway, i cried again because my boyfriend wasnt available to take my pain and worries.. :( sadness. Anywy, my dads BestFriend and his daughter Ciara came over about 11:45, well i was hungry.. And we ha pancakes, Yes. I sarcastically asked my dad if i was allowed- to my dismay, he said YES!!! so i made pancakes at Midnight, to make it better- THEY WERE PURPLE!!!!:D ahhh, they were really yummy! Pancakes ARE an amazing comfort food.. I feel so much morr relaxed after eating hotcakes and jamming to Tenth North Avenue(: now, to bed i go so i can get up for Church tomorrow - Becca