Day 16.

Hey Readers- so I was supposed to post this last night, but your blog poster was distracted by a Birthday card for her mom, :) Anyway. Here is my blog post for ~16 Days~

As you guys [should] know, Jacob took a flight early yesterday morning with his Youth Group for a mission's trip in New York, And I told you guys I was going to blog everyday about how I feel about it and how I am coping with his absence in my everyday life.

I stayed up till about 1am yesterday morning, and I was determined to stay up till I was sure he was ON his flight (Which by the way, I wasn't exactly sure WHEN that even was..) Well I fell asleep, anyway I woke up about 10:45 (EARLY for me!!!!!!)  I woke up and went on with life, and then I started to miss him, so I texted up a couple friends telling them stories about him that relaxed me. Then as a joke, I told 3 of my Best Friends that they were going to be in my wedding! :P So I basically coped throughout the day thinking about marrying him. :] I am praying so much for his safety, and I am still jealous, I bet New York is GORGEOUS! Especially at night.. And I wonder if he saw/is going to see Ground Zero.. Hmm, I pray he is having fun and that he is being SAFE and not doing anything stupid..

OH MY GOSH! SUE ME!, I forgot to tell you the BEST part of my day!! :O

Ohk, So this guy says he's 'in love with me' but when he said that.. he told me he still had feelings for his ex..  MY OPINION::::::::::
If you really LOVE someone, its physically/emotionally IMPOSSIBLE to have ANY feelings for ANYONE else besides the person your claiming to love. (I LOVE Jacob. :P)

So I got really mad and explained he can't love me then if he liked his ex still..and he tried telling me that I liked him..so I didn't love Jacob.. DO YOU GUYS HAVE ANY IDEA HOW FREAKING P.O I WAS?!?! No. I got REALLY mad...and then something in my heart and mind sparked an idea- Jacob always shows me how much he loves me, and he is trying impossibly hard in our relationship, and I should try harder then I have been to make sure he knows without NO doubts that I love him. Soo I came up with some creative ideas to prove that to him on July 16, 2011. (The day he gets back :) )

IDEA UNO: I was going to sit in a box in his room..and pop out when he walked in. <3 ..but uhmm..I dont know what time he gets home :P

IDEA DOS: I am going to spend the night at my Best Friend's house. (Who lives like a mile from him. :) ) and I am going to walk to his house..and sit in his backyard and say "Hey babe, Can I come over?..Too late im on my way but I am lost..Come outside and wait for me to get there" and I am going to surprise him with an Orange Aeropostle hoodie :D

^ IDEA DOS, is the one I am going to do(: Its going to be completely epic! <3