~Hazel Eyes.~

Today should be a happy day. I have been dating Jacob for a month, today. I should be happy. I am, just I have a lot on my mind right now. Last night I was with a group of ladies for a Scrapbooking Crop. I had a blast until I checked my phone at 8:31 to a text saying "Dont hate me for telling you this" from one of my best friends- Liz. I knew it had to do with Jacob, she tells me everything about him. (Did I mention I am in a long distance relationship with Jacob? Well. now you know..) I went to the bathroom so I could freely cry- I knew the news had to be bad. My eyes watered as I sent "He's breaking up with me..isn't he? </3"  My heart pounded more violent then ever as I waited for her answer. "No, my friend said she saw him ask out another girl on Thursday. BECCA DONT BELIEVE IT BECAUSE SHE HONESTLY IS A LIAR" My tears fell hard, and fast. Here I am, sitting in the bathroom at a highschoool..crying harder then I have in a long time. Without thinking I texted my first love/ex/first kiss and said that I loved him.(As a brother.. but I didn't say brother..but I SWEAR thats what I was thinking- BROTHER) and he was just as thrown off my the comment as I was about my life at that moment. After that whole conversation I called Jacob, and he didn't answer. If it were not for the fact that I was sitting in a bathroom, and ANYONE could walk in at any moment and for the fact I was BAWLING..i would honestly have cussed him out right then and there. Instead, I just left a message saying "If you think its funny to break a girl's heart by cheating..your wrong." and I hung up and just cried harder. I was honestly more upset then I have been in a LONG time. About 10 minutes later, I called Jacob again.(Still crying.) and he answered:
Him: Hey.
Me: Hey. Why am I hearing rumors about you cheating on me? After I gave you my heart and told you I loved you..and MEANT it.
Him: Becca! No!! Why would I do that? Why are you even BELIEVING IT?!?!. I LOVE YOU!
Me: (Still crying) Im not. and I love you too
Him: You obviously are, and I swear I am not.
Me: Ok. *snifffles*
Him: Now I gotta go. I love you.
~Hangs up phone~

I HONESTLY don't think he's cheating, and I TRUST him with ALL my heart..but I am upset that the whole incident even had to happen. Its the first overly-emotional incident thats happened in the relationship. I learned that EVERY relationships  going to have fights- fights that are easy to work through- and fights that look like is gonna end the relationship. Its 10X harder in a LDR. (Long distance relationship). I love him, and I trust him..It is just VERY difficult. Liz even told me not to believe it and that there is NO way he would do that. (SHE goes to school with him). Jacob and I are in a VERY deep relationship, and it would kill me to see an end to it. It feels right knowing that I wrote out my feelings about this and feeling more confident in this issue then I did this morning. I want to say HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY JACOB MICHAEL! I LOVE YOU!. I am ready to enjoy my one month with my boyfriend now.
Lots of Love~ Becca. <3